I'm still not sure where I am in the grand scheme of things but while I am trying to figure things out, I am having a grad time. I've given up at least for the time being the idea of finding an AA meeting, but not the idea of finding a support group to have people I can talk to. I mentioned earlier that I had found a group of military and ex military people to meet with. This group is awesome. Of course its a mish mash of problems but you can feel the support and the bonds there to help each other. But its just a group of people getting together for some downtime.
My week went pretty wild. I'm trying to get to know a guy close to my age and situation with my kids. So he really understands where I am coming from and accepts that because of my kids I might have to leave at any given point in time. The awesome part about it is that not only does he understand, he will do the same things for his kid. Our positions on kids and dating are so close its almost scary. The downfall is that I met him because one of my friends is interested in him. He told here he isn't interested in her, but that didn't dissuade her. She has almost reached stalker status with him. :( But after sitting down and talking to him about the situation we decided to still give things a try and deal with the fall out as it occurs. If necessary we'll pop red smoke and call for help. In the meantime its great getting to know him. I really enjoy spending time with him, most of which is spent laughing at our own stupidity and goofiness. We learned early on to set an alarm or two if ether one of us has to be anywhere at a certain time. Time flies by us when we sit and talk. Even if all I get out of this is a new friend, all the drama we have dealt with for just an opportunity is worth it!
Anyhow I am logging off for a while. I am going to lunch, then maybe a movie.